Hi everyone, i would like to know what makes you stand out from your immediate environment. It could be something physical or a feature that qualifies you.
I’ll go first, i have quite large feet from years of moving around barefooted and while growing up, i had to have shoes custom made as most of the good ones were made in general sizes only, i still have trouble getting shoes.
I dislike being observed. If someone comments on me in any capacity (clothes, looks, humor, etc.) Whether positive or negative I get uncomfortable.
That being said, currently a bright orange top.
Otherwise I’m a very average looking person who wears mostly black, dark blues, and some greys.
Reminds me of Jung’s theory around The Gaze, and how by ourselves we are our own subjects, capable of authoring our own paths, but as soon as another being is introduced and we’re subject to their gaze, their own aspect of being a subject necessarily forces some objectification upon us (and us on them). It’s interesting theory, and a good examination of why some people feel so incredibly uncomfortable with others around.
I may have to look into that to some. I’ve never been good around people, but specifically when they say something it’s much worse.
Sort of in a similar vein, I don’t like mirrors because it makes me see myself which presents an image that does not match the way I feel I present myself or my internal image of myself. it’s less a matter of attraction or confidence so much as a disillusionment.
I just learned about this, and think I have it too, to an extent. I’ve grown more comfortable as I move age and transform closer to the hag witch I was born to be.
It’s called a fear of being perceived, or scopophobia. Apparently it’s common with neurodivergence (though I personally wouldn’t consider myself neurodivergent- at least not enough to seek a diagnosis).