Beautiful writing, I couldn’t stop reading. The photos look great too!

I had the same reaction! I was expecting a big guy.

Every Time I Die. It was a very small venue, the stage was like 2 feet off the ground and I was front row. No barriers or bodyguards, you could just reach out and touch them. The ceiling had pretty low beams and people were hanging from them at times.

They let people on the stage and if they lingered too long, theyd shove them off. They put on a wild show, interacting with everyone and just going crazy. That venue didn’t last long, it was open for 2 years and shut down after a zoning violation and some other issues.

Honestly I’ve never had that much fun at another show. I’ve been blown away by several performances, but the energy has never topped that one.

I hope you can help your friend with some programming! That sounds pretty exciting. If you ever want to share some progress pics of your minis, I’d love to see them.

I know it probably doesn’t mean a whole lot since I’m just a stranger on the internet, but I’m proud of you for making it through all of this without a drink. I’m proud that you reached out for help and encouragement. I’m proud that you are trying.

Whenever things fall apart, I tell myself that I have to endure the rough times in order to fully appreciate the good. It’s kind of cheesy, but it always makes me feel a little bit better.

Maybe try filling your spare time with learning something new, if you have the energy to do it. It could be something really easy like a new hobby (and maybe you could meet someone through that instead of at a social gathering with alcohol?), or it could be learning to code or something. There’s lots of free resources out there.

I’ve been trying to learn a new language and I find it keeps me distracted from thinking about things.

You got this for today!

People have been calling them digital gardens lately.