Unfortunately alive. USAmerican, gay

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Cake day: February 23rd, 2024

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  • Thanks ❤️

    I think it was unkind, but I also get why he lost his temper. Looking back I wasn’t being rational, was doing relationship OCD stuff and being really frantic about it, too. He could’ve said the exact right thing and it wouldn’t have helped. Been working on it, but I backslid hard.

    Gonna try not to take his words to heart but they did feel pretty bad for a little while.




  • I feel like I should be good. I dragged myself to D&D on Thursday and then speed dating on Saturday, met a lot of people and had fun.

    But as soon as both ended, I just felt hollow. I haven’t texted anyone back because I don’t think I can do friendships/relationships.

    The day of the speed dates I got into an argument with my best friend. I guess I misunderstood something he said so my response made no sense. I thought I was spilling my heart and he just said, “what the fuck are you talking about? How the fuck was that your takeaway?”

    And the fight was my fault, I fucked up. I don’t think he was unfair. But I feel incoherent and annoying when we talk, and I don’t think I want to make any more friends.




  • I wish I lived somewhere where recycling cans were ever fivr minutes away 🥲 there’s one at my job but it’s always full of food

    I end up keeping my recyclables in my closet for months because the schedule for the town recycling drop-off doesn’t work with my work schedule, so it’s, rare to make a trip down there.








  • Do we have the same personality? Because I don’t see why it would escalate to murder. I don’t like violence.

    I think most likely is we’d take turns going to work, and one of us would always get to stay home and procrastinate on chores. For some people that probably wouldn’t work as the duplicate would point out they have no obligation to their original, but I have a million siblings so an obsession with fairness has been hard-coded into my brain. We would work the exact same amount of hours and split all our sweets perfectly evenly.

    I think the big downside is that I’d probably have to stop going to the gym. Alternating days would effectively halve my progress, and I’m not buying twice as much protein power.


  • Idk, people who were safe in western states called me a doomer and got mad at me for my sadness being unproductive while a hurricane killing people and flattening neighboring towns. No one is an effective activist 100% of the time, maybe let people grieve for five seconds.